The Meaning of My Life

郭庆

Every time I read the newspaper, I find that there are always some people died in the world. I realize that the life is fragile, and begin to ponder over the meaning about my life.

Any question about life never occurred to my mind at the time before the school age when I was quite free and happy. As I remember, I played with my peers everyday with whatever we could think of. Without anything serious to worry about, I spent the days in climbing trees and hide-and-seek. Happy time seemed to pass away quickly.

I devoted the following 12 years to getting the high marks and praise from others. I didn’t know why I had to study, but I knew that good scores would amuse parents and teachers greatly. At that time, I was also proud of the performance. I can even call the memory that in the primary school I did my utmost to write well just to get the praise of my teacher. How pure the mind it was! In junior high school, an aim appeared in my mind that was I would enter the best senior high school in our town. If I succeeded, I would be not only commended by both teachers and parents but also admired by my schoolmates, for at that time, there were few students who could get the admission to that school. I worked hard and I did. To my appointment, I was not so happy as I had imagined. When I first came to the school, I was shocked to find that it to me was what a playground to an ant. The atmosphere where it was full of the smell of competition was quite different from what was used to be in the junior high school. I was aware of that the praise from it would be of great value. It was also in that school that I knew high marks would guarantee me a good university which was equal to a bright future. From the moment I knew on, I altered the aim of study from amusing others to considering about myself.

In the past 12 years, the meaning of my life just seemed to entertain others by getting the high credits. It is lucky that I realize that my life's meaning can be of more value,as the increase of knowledge and social experience.

My attention is not just focused on the high points any more. It is partly shifted to my personality which is playing a more and more important role in my life. My happiness can not only stem from the good study, but also from the good relationship with all things, including the ones I love, the ones who love me, and even the environment. Sometimes I am satisfied with the life even without a high score. I am still amusing others, but this time it is just a by-product rather than my real purpose. My life’s meaning is amusing myself instead of others.

I am wondering around the track circle after circle as if there is no ending. However when I stop, I find that every circle is fresh to me for I come across different people and scenery each time. It seems that my life’s meaning is varied from circle to circle. No one knows where I will stop. Neither do I have an idea of what the future will be like. What I am sure is that the adventures will lead me a much more meaningful life and I will enjoy it greatly.   

Cinderella

I didn’t know why I had to study, but I knew that good scores would amuse parents and teachers greatly. _____This reminds me of my son's getting high scores. Perhaps he has the same idea with you

You have grown up by realizing that it's important to enjoy yourself all through your life. In the future, I hope, you will discover what is more important.

Life is a circle _ this is a good metaphor____my life’s meaning is varied from circle to circle.